SomebodysWish

how can i move forward, when the fingerprints of my insecurities are still lingering within my chest, pressing against my ribs like piano keys? i am just waiting, for the day, when the saddest parts of me are overcome with songs of serenity.

Why am I still so hung up on you ?! It's been 9 months 8 days ... The clock chimes midnight Another day has passed. Another day of nothingness, Another day without you. I still think about you, They'll tell me I'm stupid and I should get over it , but I can't I no longer sleep at night. Too busy Thinking, Wishing, Analysing Everything, Every conversation, Smile, Touch, Looking desperately for a deeper meaning, A deeper title than 'just friends' as you repeatedly called us. I do wonder.. What's it like from your perspective ? I pass your workplace everyday Looking in With hope That maybe you'll look up and notice me That I'll s

Trouble left us holding our breath but you said you liked it that way and there was no excuse for the bodies under our beds, at least nothing that my fists and  brown sack of wine couldn't fix. I would watch you lie for hours - something about how the words ran and hid from you and how school children thought you look a lot like Jesus or their big brothers, your uniform a perfect trick upon the light. You made them play tag, promising pennies if they caught us, begging them to leave a mark upon your jacket so you could remember them. The girls reminded you of our mother and how her grin grew lopsided when she said ou

There are flames where his head should be - forty pieces of silver a dressing gown, a pipe a poem left in the fireplace. This man promised you a winter so warm and bountiful spring would be ashamed. He called you by name - not the one that father knew shoved under his bible But the one left behind in the branches, in the bucket of brambles, and the columbines buried at your feet. Stone angels on the battlefield surrender in the grass. What did his face even look like behind the curtain, counting those coins and loosening the damp earth from your shoes?